Love in the Time of COVID
Fresh from getting off a long-term relationship some time ago, I jokingly told my friend, “I just want to get married to a widower, so then I can have instant children.” Who would’ve thought?
There were three things I asked God for in a man following a harrowing heartbreak:
First, I told God I want someone who is already broken before Him. Someone who’s already been through darkness and surrendered everything to God. A man who has come to a point in his life when he said, “Lord, I can’t do this on my own. Please take full control.” Someone who has been through a lot but firmly believes in God’s sovereignty. He would have a gentleness and humility about him that could only come from a life totally anchored in God’s love, character, and promises.
Second, I asked for a man I can serve Him with, whom I can be a helpmate to.
Lastly, a man who would accept me for who I am completely and wholly. My quirks, weaknesses, limitations, shortcomings, and my past. Who would love me not because of, but in spite of. (But of course, who would also challenge me to grow and improve.)
Not long after, I met a man with the abovementioned qualities. “Met” wouldn’t be the exact term, as I’ve known him all along.
Yes, he was a “broken” man, as he is a plane crash survivor. Who among us actually knows someone who experienced such and lived to tell the tale? He is like a real-life hero.
Yes, he is a servant of God. Where there is a need, he’s sure to be there. (That is also how we actually “met” and got to know each other, as he helped me and my family during the start of the pandemic. We were utterly helpless at that time.)
And yes, there was something from my past that I wasn’t able to disclose to anybody, but when he heard about it, he still chose to love me.
I have finally found the one whom my soul loves.
“Scarcely had I passed them when I found the one my heart loves. I held him and would not let him go till I had brought him to my mother’s house, to the room of the one who conceived me.” — Songs of Solomon 3:4
